I Just Called...

To my 1986 Pet Shop Boy:

From my cousin's wedding,
I just called to say I want you.
Wish you were here.

From my best friend's wedding,
I just called to say I miss you.
Wish you were here.

Long ago you made it clear,
I wasn't right for you.
Accepting that reality
Was quite a bit of work.

I kept resetting
To the hope for a connection,
But too often a hope
For a savior.

But you can't save someone from himself.

You knew that and I knew that.
But it took me a long time
To grow into myself.

I no longer have your number,
You long ago moved afar.
If I had it,
There's one more call I'd make.

From my own wedding,
I just called to say I'm doing fine.
Wish you were here.


	21 August 2019
	by Bill Cattey