HabitsI fear getting stuck in a rut.
So much so that I avoid
Getting good at things I might not enjoy.
I have a near phobia
Of doing the same thing twice.
Unless that thing
Crossed over into my obsession.
I'm not sure how it got there
But now I own it
And can't let go.
I guess it was a choice
But it doesn't feel like a choice.
I gotta break out of this cycle
Of decisions based on avoidance
And failure to disown.
The way out?
Shift from habit defined as synonymous with
Default -- A pre-made choice
Which might play out as the other meaning:
Default -- Failure to meet an obligation.
Redefine habit as synonymous with
Tool -- An action adopted to make the work of life easier.
Maybe then the unpleasant will take a smaller slice of life.
With habit as tool
Save the energy formerly spent:
Agonizing over decisions.
Hating the disruption of a surprise.
Spend it on
And pruning away obligations heretofor found
Start with the first new habit:
A tool not a default.
|6 July 2014 (unfinished)|
|by Bill Cattey|